Unless you have psychic abilities or prophet like intuition, who knows?!
Before I explain why I asked the question above, I’d better give you a quick update on what’s been happening as I know some of you have been wondering! I’ve almost recovered from the renal infections, the e-coli has gone and the uveitis has cleared up. All positive, except I’ve managed to get a really nasty chest cold pretty much straight away. After 3 weeks of it, it’s clearing up now. If you haven’t had it.. you’re next!!! It’s doing the rounds at the moment! I can’t seem to go anywhere without hearing sneezing, coughing and nose blowing. If you have yet to catch it, start dosing up on your vitamins now or better still, hibernate until March-ish!
Anyway, apart from the chest cold, I still have a low haemoglobin count and mysterious bruising on my legs – my consultant is keeping an eye on both of those issues. I’m hoping the haemoglobin sorts itself out soon as it has really affected my fitness training, I feel so unfit.
So, back to the question at the top. It doesn’t really require an answer as it’s more of a rhetorical question, but the fact is, we really have no idea what’s around the proverbial. It all came to a head this morning when I was as usual, listening to BBC Radio 5 Live on my drive into work. The headline news was that the Australian cricketer Phil Hughes, had died after being struck by a cricket ball two days earlier – he was only 25 years old. This news filled me with sadness, not because of his age but the fact that he had died from a ‘freak accident’, a blow to the side of his neck. Having heard this, I was trying to make sense of why it happened and why he had to die. And it was all borne out of what I went through and what had happened since my last blog entry.
The same week I posted the last entry, I received news that two of my friends within 24 hours of each other were diagnosed with cancer. One with Myeloma and the other with Uterus cancer. A few weeks later, a friends 7 year old son was diagnosed with Leukaemia. Each of those families are going through hell at the moment, and no doubt the family of the Cricketer is also going through hell. That radio report really hit home when it was juxtaposed with a news story about mindless violence and the David Mellor taxi driver rant. I couldn’t help but wonder whether some people could do with a little perspective and a little reminder of their own mortality. I’m not saying they should be struck down with anything nasty – oh god no, I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone, but if there was a way to make them realise how short and precious life is, maybe they would think twice about their actions. Wouldn’t the world be a better place for it?! God, I sound naive.. but that is what perspective does for you. I’m not saying I’m perfect, I’m far from it, but what I do know is that the way I viewed life 3 years ago is vastly different to how I view it now. I appreciate it for what it is, I enjoy life a lot more, but I’ve also developed a fear that I’ve never had before. The fear of not knowing what will happen next – to me, or to the people I love. It’s absolutely terrifying which is all the more reason to appreciate and treasure the life and the time you have on this earth. Like the cricketer, it could be snatched away when you least expect it. Nothing is beyond the realms of possibility. As the last few weeks has proved, no one is immune to freak accidents, illnesses or anything.
On that philosophical note, I shall leave you to ponder (or go to sleep)! Next time you see someone you care about, give them a hug and appreciate them, you won’t regret it – even if you do come across a bit weird!